After Taste

A self proclaimed shadow, lonely I’ve walked this Earth
Enough to seem a man, but not yet solid like the dirt
Mortality a knife, draws the life from my veins
Power I had not, till I found power in the pain
Blood flows, yet I continue to run on
Lungs gasp, but no longer Fear’s pawn
Flesh numb, breaking out of its bonds
Mind screams joy and pain, directed at the new dawn

No full moon guides this transformation into beast
When the self loathing stops, monster’s actions cease
But Fear is not deceased, it is just hidden down inside
It is with the threat of Death that one feels the most alive
But death is not an option, defeat’s not even a dream
I need release for demons that are lurking in my screams
I am my own damn judge, I decide if I’ve achieved
A state that is worthy to shed mortality

Honestly I’m fine, I am just trying to fact face
That the fears are not gone, just locked up and could escape
Who knew dreams went deeper than the mind
They target the heart and what is hidden deep inside
I’ve no need to worry because I’ve got it safe in hand
Just another bit of Life that I now understand
I’ve God to thank that I’m still not feeling numb
A dream and a reminder to see how far I’ve come

Poem done.
Peace reigns.
All sun.
No pain.
My past I remembered.